JANUARY 9 2001

And so the year is new, and so am I. And there is people I could thank, and people I could blame, and people who just don't care... and people who care too much. But not tonight.
Needless to say, the most important, and exciting part of, lets say, a court room drama for example, is when the jury comes out and says, guilty, or not guilty. If you take that bit of film and just watched it, it would be perhaps the most boring thing you have ever seen. misleading, and in a way, even cruel. It is everything that has lead up to that moment that makes is so important.... no one should ever think there isn't at very least an hour and a half of things out there that lead to any decision.
And the moon is full and bright...
The last year was a year to remember. And I am glad is has finally come to a close... and don't think I am ungrateful of it all, but there is always two views to the same verdict... even if they are in one head.
Soca music for a dead soul.
Good night.

DECEMBER 17 2000

The year is coming to a close, so I have decided to write something down for you cats to read here. It is my daughter's birthday in a couple days.. she will be three. But that is not my point. The point is I went to a mall today and fully realized how pathetic and stupid christmas has got. There is no good will toward man, and the spirit of christmas and all that any more.. it is just a commercial thing, to the fullest extent of the meaning. and I for one am totally sad about it. granted, I think the whole original Jesus thang is pretty fucked up and stupid, but it seems to have always been a good reason for people to be nice to each other. And that can't be a bad thing... but that has given way to spoiling kids, and making money... good god, when I saw all the people at the mall today, I almost decided right there not to get my kids anything for christmas. And it would probably be a good plan.. they would grow up thinking Christmas is about all the good things it is supposed to be, rather than the time of year when they get all the stuff they want. Anyway this is going to be a sad, lonely self-pitying christmas for me any way.. Poor little Blaise... this will be the first Christmas I will not have any one to share it with since 1993.. wait no. I had someone then too... it would be 1991. Man, I guess it is about time to be single anyway. I should shut up now.
Oh yeah.. get my records, they are finally done.. but I'm sure you can see that from the appearance of my web site... well... if I don't see you all again soon, happy Christmas... and if you see a skateboarder anywhere, spit on them for me.... just kidding... i think.